Monday, October 13, 2008

our process

you've been set. sitting still. waiting, breathing patiently watching me. pulling me when i cant dray myself.
Lord,
let this be ATTRACTIVE.
my heart for you is in no way right now sitting in an attractive stage to the outside.
and i know
i know
i know i know i know i know i know i know i know i know
i know
i know
i know i know
i know i know
i know i know i know
i know i know
i know
i know i know
i know i know
i know i know
i know

you dont want me, us, anyone, your children to live like this.
i KNOW these things, God, sweet Savior, i KNOW them!! i just cant GET It. one second its clear, its refreshing, encouraging and inspiring, totally spirit changing..
and then i breath in reality of this world.
and not the reality of YOU.
ah God let me get that.
you dont want perfection, which only leads to me chasing after perfection to distruction because that was only done by you and could have only been done by you so why this mess i know i know i know you want me to chase after YOUR heart, having eyes on YOU but this passion thing has fallen so far away from me but your taste i run and run and run for it again because nothing i've ever tasted, have yet to taste or will ever, is as good as you.



"i wait upon you now, with my hands released to you
where a little faiths enough to see mountains lift and move."


i know.